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In your gods you may trust…

I started reading and posting on a Yahoo group for Canadian UC and it is pretty much bombarded with “god” talk…. Within a few days that I joined the group someone commented on it, just saying that she had trouble getting though all of the “god talk” and finding the message in the text… I agreed with her saying that I was having trouble doing the same and explained that in trying to find information and gather the strength to fully have confidence in my body I would love to read about how others do the same… However, in going through the archive the majority of the messages about preparation and birth are all full of “I had trust in God”, “I knew He would do what is right”, “I prayed to God to tell me what to do”, “I knew that God was with me”… blah blah blah….

So… what happens when you read this and don’t believe that God even exists.. Well you don’t get anything from it and another learning experience is pretty much thrown out the window. So I explained just that… that I have trouble getting what I personally need when all the trust is in God and not in themselves and that I would love to read how people have gained confidence in themselves. I explained that I am searching for this because I am in the “unlearning stage”… Unlearning the idea that pregnancy and birth is a medical problem that needs medical attention, and relearning that Birth and Pregnancy are in most cases are problem free but have problems due to medical intervention.

The response was the usual.. everyone jumped to the conclusion that because we don’t like the God talk and can’t take anything from it, that we automatically are offended by it and we want it all to stop and we want them to hide their faith or stop believing. Then the “tolerance” issue of “I am not offended when I read Pagan, Wiccan and Atheist birth stories, why are you offended by mine?”… “Read this passage in the bible and you will understand why”… “Are we Christians now going to be discriminated against?”…

UGHHHH!!!

I hate it when people jump to the conclusion that when someone talks about their religion and then someone says that they just can’t take anything from it, or can’t relate then they automatically think that we are offended by the “god talk” or that we want them to stop not only talking about it… But it is almost like they think that we want them to stop believing… Why does it automatically become an offensive remark to not believe in the same thing? Are people taught in their churches etc that whoever isn’t with them is against them? That non-believers are out to get them and bring them to the “dark-side”? That Atheists are just out to make them stop believing or that we have pacts with the devil or something?

The devil thing makes me laugh (I have heard this argument before) because an Atheist having a pact with the devil is an oxymoron… the devil is a religious idea and you would actually have to believe in a god to believe in the devil…

I get so annoyed by people assuming that I am offended by them, or think that I am trying to offend them just because I state an opposite opinion. The same goes for aspects of parenting…

“It’s not all about you!!”

Good friends…

I spent the day with my friend Isabelle and her kids on Friday. It was a gorgeous day and while we stayed in the house before lunch we got out right after and went to the her Farm and went to see the new 2 day old baby goats and the chickens. The boys had a lot of fun seeing the animals and I was told that Xavier was having a lot of fun trying to catch a certain hen… I of course started to swell up and started having trouble breathing with the dusty,uncirculating air inside of the building… I had to get out of there as soon as possible after…

The snow is melting and the kids were all having fun playing in the puddles. While we were Tapping a Maple tree in her yard (getting some fresh maple water) the kids found a big puddle that was higher then their boots… We went inside to change the kids so that we could stay out side a bit longer. Xavier told me that his feet were wet, I noticed that his boots were swelled up and when I took his feet out, there was at least an inch of water in his boots….
We got them changed and headed back out… every few minutes the rest of the day we heard geese flying over head… they are flying north early this year….

Here are a few pics…

The kids gathering around the piano

Here is the Fort/”tree house” that Isabelle’s Dh is making for the girls….

And here are some Geese…

They now know…

We decided to tell the family this weekend. The reactions were mixed… My mom was happy, Simon’s dad was happy… Simon’s mom wasn’t… well… she maybe is but I didn’t hear it… Simon called his mom and I picked up the other phone and listened in…. he told her and she said something like… “Oh no… not for real?” Ughh… I hung up and it seems she was a bit happier after.

She doesn’t see the kids on a regular basis and when she does she doesn’t have a good idea of who they really are and how good they really are… she is a very nervous person at times, well, most times and doesn’t like mess etc… when she comes over with Simon’s sister the kids, well Xavier gets really excited and he is just a handful at times, and Colin of course just wants to be with me in my arms…. she seems to think that he is like that all of the time and she has been saying negative comments about having a third for a while now…

My mom also knows that I will be going unassisted and has no problem with it… she said that she would be there… but no… that would makes me even more nervous…

I also told Simon’s dad’s GF and his grandmother about the UP and they had little opinion but it was at least positive…

Anyways… they know….

Gonna keep on waiting…

Well… I talked to the head midwife and she said that the other midwives see no problem on seeing me only at 20 weeks if I am accepted then….

So I have to call in July (the 5th to be exact ??) and they will tell me if they have space for me… I told her that I really am OK with going solo and told her that I am going to keep an eye on things and she thought that it was really cool… I told her sorry for last week and told her that I really didn’t want to put her in a rough place, it was just that I really am OK with a UP and she said that there wasn’t a problem and she became really friendly…

Waiting…

Well, this afternoon I have to call the Birthing Center in Nicolet (the one that put me on the waiting list) to see what if I will be able to see someone at least once. Like I explained here the head midwife is going to ask if someone can see me once before 20 weeks. They have their weekly meeting this morning so she will be able to tell me this afternoon. I tried to call her yesterday to say that I hadn’t wanted to put her between a rock and a hard spot last week when I told her that if they couldn’t take me then I would be going unassisted…and that I really was OK with itand was ready to do so… but she wasn’t there.

I think that I would like to go for a sonogram like I did with the boys at around 20 weeks… It wasn’t really the fact that I wanted to see if everything is ok (though that is a bonus) it was just amazing that we could look inside and see our baby… it just made it even more “real” (for Simon also)….

Even if I don’t get in with the midwives I think I will seek one out anyways..

Ughh….I hate waiting…