Take two…

Last weekend I spotted a bit…. it was the kind of spotting that reminded me of the implantation bleeding that I have gotten with each pregnancy (except the loss)…

On wednesday morning I woke up and took my temp like every morning and realized that it had been 4 days since the spotting… (with the boys I had gotten a positive test a few days after implantation) and because I had a test in the drawer in the bathroom I decided to “just see” and a line stared back at me…

Almost a week later and I am still in shock… I told two friends that day (and Simon) but I haven’t said anything to anyone yet IRL besides them…

This is the first time that we haven’t shared the news quickly and honestly I have been avoiding writing here because this blog is so much like a journal to me, but sharing is scary in a way because I am a bit afraid to get too attached, and the more I share with those who know me the more real it gets… I guess it just needs some time to sink in…and I need to just believe that things will work out…

So my EDD has been pushed back about 6 weeks from early Dec to mid Jan…

I wonder when the shock will wear off… hopefully before then…

Orgasmic Birth…

It has taken me so long to write about this but I guess it is better late than never…

On the 6th it was the “Orgasmic Birth” viewing here in Montreal. It was amazing!

The people, the atmosphere and of course the film…

I left home at about 2:45 with two of the local moms whom I had invited and we went out to eat before heading to the show… after eating and getting an ice cream we did one more errand and then headed to Vanier College where the film was being presented… We got there early and found a place to sit and by the time that film started the place was full… pregnant women, mothers, a few babies, doulas, midwives, midwife students, birth activists, dads and even a few doctors… the energy in the room was amazing.
While we were waiting, a woman sat down next to me… she was an older woman and we started talking and I asked her if she was in the birthing community, she said she wasn’t but that she had done her PhD in Birth many years ago and then talked about her birthing experiences, she had wanted natural births with her first daughter nearly 50 years ago she had been put into twilight sleep.. by her third child she was able to get the birth she wanted… she had taught in Vancouver and then retired back in Montreal and has not been part of the birthing scene in many years but had seen an editorial in the Montreal Gazette and wanted to check it out… The conversation we had was one that I will not soon forget.

The movie started, a few glitches of wrong subtitles and then started again… and about 1/3 of the way through there was a scene of a vacuum extraction and a c-section and the lights went up, a woman in the audience had fainted. I have to admit, seeing it that close up, on that big on screen was pretty pretty hard….

The movie started up again and when it was done it was time for the discussion panel. On the panel was Lysiane Gregoire, the president of the Groupe MAMAN,  Nicole Pino, a mom that had an orgasmic birth, Debra Pascali-Bonaro, the filmmaker, Celine Lemay, a midwife from Quebec (the one that had come here after Khéna was born and whom I had called a few weeks ago when I was bleeding) Betty Anne Davis, the co-autor of the homebirth study and midwife in Ottawa and Jack Newman, Breastfeeding Guru and pediatrician in Toronto.

the questions for the panel started out slowly but picked up soon after and the responses from the panel were amazing… Some were about the lack of midwife care in quebec, some were more technical questions or in need of opinion….

like a mom who was scheduled for a C-section for a breech baby seen on an ultrasound at 20 weeks!!! which in response one of the panelist explained that the recomendations are changing with respect to breech births because of the fact the problems that may occur in breech birth disspear by the age of two but that the rise of c-sections mean that there are more maternal deaths….  the problem now is that doctors need to change thier practices….

or a question about IV fluids in labour and how there is no standard and women are given Litres of fluid and how it effects birth weight and weight loss in babies (losing more than 10% of their weight after birth) because of excess water and then the breastfeeding relationship being threatened with supplements etc…

The questions and the discussion just kept on going until we were literally being told to leave by the campus security…

If you have the chance to get your hands on the movie, do it… it is really a great movie, well made and beautiful… and what is amazing about it is that it is being shown more and more to the birth “professionals” who have never seen a normal birth and for many it is changing their views… I ordered a copy and I can’t wait to share it also…

Vanilla update…

I first started this Vanilla in January

It looked like this….

vanilla extract...

Now… it looks like this…

Vanilla

After about 6-7 weeks I was able to start using it and haven’t looked back… Every now and again I add a bit more alchool or a vanilla bean after I used the seeds in a recipe to keep it replenished and it is the most amazing Vanilla I have ever had… and the cheapest!!

With this vanilla, when a recipe calls for a tsp, you only need a tsp… if you use more, the vanilla flavour will stand out even more but for somethings it can even become overwhelming if you use too much… and I am a vanilla lover!!

New Bike…

I have been wanting a new bike and I have been looking at the Electra bikes for while now…

My biking needs are about comfort and ease. There are no hills here and until all the kids are riding by themselves or nealy we won’t be doing much rough terrain and honestly we would have to go out of our way to find that…

I love to bike and I haven’t been biking in a long time… the bike I bought before Xavier was born wasn’t a Zellers bike but wasn’t the best quality either and by the end of a ride I would always be sore… my back from bending over, my neck from looking up and well… my bottom doesn’t like the seat…

I also look the look of the Electra bikes… they are just gorgeous…

the prices though… not as much…

So I have been looking more and more for what bike I would like and looking once in a while on Kijiji for the chance that I might find one there… yesterday I got lucky… Someone was listing a nearly new Electra Cruiser… only used a few times…

I just knew that I had to have it…

My mom and Simon picked it up on the way back from Montreal today and I am in love!!!

It is such an amazing ride… Xavier and went for a ride after supper… I would really love to make it something that we do on a regular basis…

The Electra Blanc et Noir….

Electra Blanc et Noir

I love the detail…

Electra Blanc et Noir

Electra Blanc et Noir

and the pretty seat…

Electra Blanc et Noir

Electra Blanc et Noir

It is such a classic looking bike… now all I need is a basket…

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