Last week when I went to buy fish for my Sushi and Wakame salad (seaweed salad) they had me try another salad… It was a a spicy japanese salad made with sesame, red chiles, seaweed and squid. I bought a little container and brought it home and had Colin try it… he loved it!
This is just another little video…. (it is a bit dark but you can still see)
Xavier
Xavier’s Superman Birthmark
Got Milk?
My little DJ
My Favorite Meal…. Made at home last sunday…
Colin and I
I brought Colin for more blood tests today… it was horrible…
The nurse looked at the order and then looked at me and said “oh…dr.daoud” and then sighed. I asked what it was about and then passed a comment that I don’t like her either and then asked what she had to say about her… she explained that she orders too many unnessesary tests….
I knew when I met her, when we had that run-in in her office that she was not the kind of doctor that I would ever be able to trust with the well being of my child.
I told her that we just needed to check for Iron and sighed again saying that there were way too many if it was just for Iron but she couldn’t advise me cause she isn’t a doctor….
The test was horrible, Colin was miserable, crying and sobbing, signing Maju with his free hand….and all I could think of was was why we where getting these tests done.. I regret it now…. I feel horrible… I really, truly beleive that his amemia was due to his illness and not due from a lack of Iron…. I feel horrible for putting him through that… the worst part was then half way through the blood wasn’t flowing anymore so they had to switch…. I asked them if they at least had the Iron ones done and she said no… those where the two that where left…. I would have stopped it then if they were done, I should have stopped it there…. I gave him Maju and comforted him and then we had to start again…
They left the door open a bit during that second half and each time I looked up I saw all of the people in the waiting room looking at us… they all looked like they wanted to comfort him as much as I did…. and they almost all gave me a supporting smile when we walked out… there wasn’t a seat available there so I went into the archive room across the hall and sat down and nursed him… he was happy again… all was forgiven….
I still regret it…
I should have listened more to my instincts… I shouldn’t have made him go through that…
I feel awful
This morning I went and played with the boys in their room…. Xavier grabbed a book and went and sat in his bed, Colin wanted to follow but Xavier didn’t want it, Colin’s bed is not a place that he likes when he is not sleeping so that was not an option so I sat Colin on my lap and thought of a way I could change things…
I don’t know how much you know about our sleeping arrangments but the boys share a room and have their own beds… they nap and start the night off in their beds and when then come into our beds when they want…
Colin usually comes in at around 11pm (or whenever the house gets quiet) Xavier comes whenever he wants…. usually at about 5am though….
So I was looking at the Cage… umm… Crib… and realized that it bothers me so much to be using that piece of furniture… it makes me feel like I am caging an animal whenever I put Colin down after I nurse him to sleep…and I hate that Colin can’t go in his bed by himself to play and relax…. and I hate that he can’t get down by himself when he wakes up….
So I finally did something about it….
I remembered that the crib becomes a “day bed” ….we had never put it in that position but I had the piece for it downstairs…. I decided at that moment that I would do it…
I got to work and after about 15 minutes I no longer had a crib in the room!! However, once done, I realized that even with the mattress at its lowest level, Colin can’t get up on it easily… So, I asked Xavier (who was loving being on the new bed) if he wanted to switch with Colin… and explained that Colin was too small for the new bed… and that his old big boy bed could now be Colin’s Little boy bed and that Colin’s old bed was now a big big boy bed…. It made sense to Xavier he agreed and helped me switch the beds…
Now both boys are happy with their beds… Colin can’t get on Xavier’s bed so Xavier can have some alone time… and now Colin can go and read, play and relax on his bed…
He can now also get down by himself after a nap which will be great and hopefully he will be in a better mood when he wakes up from a nap… and he can come join us during the night all by himself which will also be fun (especially for Simon who won’t have to get up to get him)… Of course, we’ll see how long it will take to get used to having that freedom….
Also, the last few nights Colin had nursed a bit and then he wants to get up and go to bed by himself (or at least try)… we put him in his little pull out bed (couch) that we bought him for his birthday and twice now he has fallen asleep there… both times he wasn’t sleeping hard enough when we tried to move him and he nursed to sleep but I see that he is more likely to not want to nurse to sleep as much as Xavier does… Xavier wasn’t a big comfort nurser but always wanted to nurse to sleep (and still does), Colin however could spend his day at the breast but doesn’t want to nurse to sleep as much… Who knows… maybe he’ll want to go in his big boy bed now….
Anyways… I don’t know why I hadn’t thought of that sooner….
I feel better letting him have the freedom he deserves…
I don’t think I will ever use the cage again….
The last few days have been gorgeous so we have been playing outside quite a bit… Before now it was either too cold and we couldn’t stay out for more then a few minutes, or it was too warm and the snow was just too wet and slushy… However, the temp has been perfect the last few days….
When we bought the house two years ago… (OMG it has already been two years!!) Anyways… we bought the house in the dead of Winter (Feb 22nd) and when we first visited the house we noticed something that we thought was pretty cool…. there is a door on our patio that leads nowhere…. the pool used to be next to the patio but they had moved it a while back…
In the summer we keep the door closed and locked, but in the winter we push all the snow that accumulates on the patio (and it is a big patio) out the door and we can make a hill of snow….
Last year Xavier wasn’t to interested to play outside much but this year he is having fun… especially on the hill…
Of course I had to take pics… and of course they are more on Flickr….
The hill…
Xavier Sliding….
Peek-a-boo….
Colin…. He looks like a green Gingerbread man from behind….
Just to show how much snow we have in the yard…
Here is the slide….
Here is the side today….
