Ahh… the words of Colin each time he kisses my sore toe better… which happens to be quitea few times a day… or even a few times an hour…

But yes… it is finally getting better… I have been changing the bandage each night after the boys go to bed and though I tried a few times to leave it in the open air it hurt lik crazy to do so and it would start throbbing and really being painful… Yesterday morning when I woke up it was a lot less sensitive and then after I took a shower last night I was able to leave it air out for about an hour before it really started to hurt… then I bandaged it up again and it helped… (I am still too chicken to not have it bandaged while I sleep though… just the thought of the blankets touching it!!! Ughh!!)

Anyways… This is something that I wouldn’t wish on anyone… it still sends chills to my spine thinking about when it happened…

I was looking at a few sites the other day and came across a doula site… from there I found a doula about 25 min away from me… I picked up the phone and called her and she is coming over today to talk…

I didn’t think about getting a doula before… I thought of having two very good friends around to do the same things that a doula could do… but I am a bit afraid of not being able to contact them depending on the time and day that I go into labour. Simon is the best support I could ask for, but the kids will be here too and depending on the time of day that things happen he will need to take care of them and me at the same time and there will probably be times when the kids and I both need him 100% at a given time… Also, in labour, I think I would enjoy having someone there that has been through it before and knows what I may need… someone that will think of the little things that others may not, that will know how to massage the right way without me having to explain etc…

I think that a Doula might me the answer for that… someone that will be able to take Simon’s place with with er me or the kids, someone that will mother me in the way that I need, that know the ropes, that believes in the birthing process, andwho will be able to make me french toast after I give birth (something that I loved eating after the boys were born) etc…

I still want to invite those friends also, but I will feel better knowing that someone is on call for me and availible at any time and really not too far away…. of course now it all depends on this meeting today and the costs to us… but I hope that it works out…