bleeding…
This is going to be a lot of TMI (to much information) so skip if you wish…
worried…
I am bleeding a bit today…
There isn’t much, and by that I mean that it is not getting on a pad, ….but it is way enough to feel worried…
it is bright red, only when I wipe and I don’t have any cramping either… I just feel weird and numb right now…
Though I wasn’t planning on getting pregnant right away, I had accepted it and was getting excited… so now this just feels a little surreal…
It is one of those things that the more you read into it, the less sure and more confused you get. I know I just have to wait and see but I don’t know what to think, what to expect and I don’t feeling like this…
so here we go again…
Wow… I have to admit that am still under the shock of finding out that we are going to have a fourth!
The three boys all have 2years and 2months between them and I was enjoying them becoming more independant, so I was wanting Khéna to be a bit older by the time we had a fourth….
I have admit that on the petty side I was looking forward to celebrating our upcoming anniversary with a few drinks.. it will be the second time we have a date night without the kids in nearly 7 years (the first was 3 years ago when I was pregnant with Khéna and we went to a wedding while my mom stayed with the boys)
We will still go out of course, but we won’t be needing a taxi…
Anyway… with the boys I was “trying” to get pregnant…I even tested a few days before AF was due… but this time I was waiting… and waiting… and AF didn’t come and I just wasn’t thinking about it at all until I realized that I was a few days past… wow … my signs were completely off this month…
So… I’m right at the begining… 5 weeks and a bit I believe and I am bloated or something cause my pants are getting way too tight… I remember the same thing happening when I was pregnant with Khéna…
Yesterday I left the boys with Simon and they headed to the Butterfly exposition at the Montreal Botanical Gardens with Simon’s dad and his girlfriend… (they tookI took that time to have fun shopping in Montreal… I headed to Plaza St-Hubert heade for a liquidation centre that I know of to get some cheap jeans to modify into Maternity jeans but I ended up parking infront of Thyme and walked in and they had a whole wall of clothes on sale.. and I was able to pick out a whole wardrobe for about 10$ a piece…
After that I walked about a bit more then I head out to the west Island to a great Sushi shop that I have been dying to get back to… I took a chance and called a friend to meet me there and luckily she was free so I got to hang out with her for lunch and then got some treats for the boys and then headed to see my friend Gen and her twins… omg.. they are 10 weeks old and SO gorgeous!!!
Simon went out walking with the boys after the butterflies and then called me when he was ready for me to go meet him… I headed downtown and picked them up and then went and got some fabric for a new skirt that I want to make for myself…then we headed home…
Anyway… It was good to be out and it was weird to be buying maternity clothes already… I am not ready to wear them yet but they will be there when I need them… the skirt I am making will also be something to wear through the summer and even into the fall with the colours that it will be… the fabric I found is just gorgeous!
changing priorities…
On the sidebar I have a list of categories…
some get used more than others as things change in my life and take different priorities…
I haven’t talked much about breastfeeding and babywearing lately…
I haven’t been blogging much about uncluttering and the things I need and want to do next in our home…
I haven’t been sharing many quotes either…
but a few of those categories have remained dormant for a while now…and that it about to change…
For we are starting our journey with another “New Begining” <– click 😉
Orgasmic Birth…
“It is possible to have an ecstatic birth – in fact, that is the best natural high that I know of. And these states of consciousness are best reached when a woman is fully aware and fully awake. Women don’t have a way to know how their body works until they really try it out in birth. I think that women can be just completely surprised by the change in them from giving birth – you have
something powerful in you – that fierce thing comes up – and I think babies need moms to have that fierceness – you feel like you can do anything.”
–Ina May Gaskin, world-renowned midwife
If you are near or in Montreal you may have heard that there is going to be a viewing of the film “Orgasmic Birth” on May 6th…
This is going to be an amazing night…
not only to see the movie, but it will be followed with a disscusion panel featuring Dr. Jack Newman (the breastfeeding “guru”), Debra Pascali-Bonaro (Orgasmic Birth’s filmmaker), Ottawa midwife Betty-Anne Daviss (Johnson and Daviss BMJ 2005 homebirth study), Montréal’s own Isabelle Brabant (midwife and author), and the true experts : women who have had ecstatic birth experiences, themselves.
The tickets are only 12$ if you buy in advance (15$ at the door) and the proceeds will be going to the Dr. Newman’s clinic and Le group MAMAN…
If you can make it I hope to see you there!!
