And he sings…

Last Sunday morning we all woke up to a bright morning…. and to our surprise, Xavier sang “Twinkle, twinkle little star”… It was out of the blue, no one had really even talked yet, it was just such a beautiful surprise…. Simon and I didn’t say a word but just looked at each other while he sang each word and didn’t even make a mistake. I didn’t even know that he knew the words…

At 3 1/2 this was the first time that Xavier sang a song… he has been “dah.. dahing” the Star Wars theme song for a while (though he has never seen the movie) and recently started filling in the blanks when I sang a song and would stop mid sentence but has never really sang…. I have amazing feelings that go through me when I hear him sing now, he has done twinkle little star a few more times and today he sang the alphabet song for the first time too (he even got most of the letters right!!)

I am starting to see a shift in him… he is growing up… today we watched a mini documentary on dinosaurs on the computer and had a great conversation about carnivors…. he is also starting to show a big interest in letters and numbers….
He also loves playing games on the computer and can get around a site very well… His favorite games right now are the ones that are on the Nick Junior site… especially the Max and Ruby dress up game….

We are trying to watch less TV and I have been doing very well actually the last few days… Since I like having a background sound I put the TV to the Montreal Talk radio station that I listen to (and I can’t get on the Radio) and that way the TV has a black screen so if the kids turn it on or off it doesn’t really matter… if the TV is just off though and at any channel they will turn it on and watch whatever is on…

However, Xavier does have a few “favorite” shows that I really don’t mind him watching…. Max and Ruby is his favorite, Little Bear is another… They are two shows that I just can’t see anything wrong with….

Oh…. another first.. a little weird and disturbing though….
Yesterday… Xavier told me his first story…I did a kind of “fill in the blank” story… it went a bit like this…

Me: Once there was a little boy named…
X: Xavier

Me : And one day Xavier….

X: Went walk in the woods….

Me: and then what happened?

X:  He met a witch!
Me:and then what happened?

X: He asked the witch to turn him into a truck!
Me: A truck! huh… and did she?
X: Yeah…

Me: and what he do when he was a truck?

X: He went up, up, up the hill into the clouds?

Me: Then what happened?

X: He saw his mom!

Me: and what did his mom do?

X: She brought him home…

Me: and did she know that he was the truck?

X: Yeah…

Me: Then what happened?

X: She put him in the toilet and flushed….

Me: Why did she do that?

X: Because he’s dead…

Me: Really, maybe she brought him back to the witch to turn him back into a boy?

X: No… he’s Dead…

Well…. Yeah…. didn’t even know how to respond to the that one….

Oh… I am so proud!!

Xavier read me his first story today…. I got a few books yesterday and one of them he really liked and first I read it to him, then we read it together and then he read it to me…. it was the first time, and it made me so proud…

It is pretty cool…

Two little videos to share…

Last week when I went to buy fish for my Sushi and Wakame salad (seaweed salad) they had me try another salad… It was a a spicy japanese salad made with sesame, red chiles, seaweed and squid. I bought a little container and brought it home and had Colin try it… he loved it!

This is just another little video…. (it is a bit dark but you can still see)

Poor kid…

I brought Colin for more blood tests today… it was horrible…

The nurse looked at the order and then looked at me and said “oh…dr.daoud” and then sighed. I asked what it was about and then passed a comment that I don’t like her either and then asked what she had to say about her… she explained that she orders too many unnessesary tests….

I knew when I met her, when we had that run-in in her office that she was not the kind of doctor that I would ever be able to trust with the well being of my child.

I told her that we just needed to check for Iron and sighed again saying that there were way too many if it was just for Iron but she couldn’t advise me cause she isn’t a doctor….

The test was horrible, Colin was miserable, crying and sobbing, signing Maju with his free hand….and all I could think of was was why we where getting these tests done.. I regret it now…. I feel horrible… I really, truly beleive that his amemia was due to his illness and not due from a lack of Iron…. I feel horrible for putting him through that… the worst part was then half way through the blood wasn’t flowing anymore so they had to switch…. I asked them if they at least had the Iron ones done and she said no… those where the two that where left…. I would have stopped it then if they were done, I should have stopped it there…. I gave him Maju and comforted him and then we had to start again…

They left the door open a bit during that second half and each time I looked up I saw all of the people in the waiting room looking at us… they all looked like they wanted to comfort him as much as I did…. and they almost all gave me a supporting smile when we walked out… there wasn’t a seat available there so I went into the archive room across the hall and sat down and nursed him… he was happy again… all was forgiven….

I still regret it…

I should have listened more to my instincts… I shouldn’t have made him go through that…

I feel awful

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