Misc Ramblings – Page 69 – a hippie with a minivan

Ouch…. I just fell….

It is really yucky today… but we had a few things to do outside before it gets too cold and especially since we had our first frost and though it is drizzling, wet and windy it is not raining as much as it was yesterday so Simon decided to go do it today…

So, Simon has been outside all morning (since about 8am) putting things from the yard away and I dressed up the kids all warm and headed out with them too… I started draining the pool and went to put something in the shed and I slipped on the ramp infront of the door.. i banged both my knees pretty bad and scraped one of my palms a bit but I am OK… one of my knees took the fall more then the other and it is a knee that I already have problems with and it is already swelling… I really didn’t need this… This is the first time I have fallen while pregnant… it isn’t something that I like…

I also have a feeling that babe may have engaged a bit more during the fall… since it happened I have a bit more pressure on my cervix… just hoping that it won’t jumpstart labour before babe is ready to come out on its own…

Got my birth pool today!!

The delivery guy arrived at the door this morning with a big box with my birthing pool….

It jut makes things seem so much more real…. I mean… this thing sitting in the hall way is what I will be hopefully giving birth in a few short weeks…. I can’t wait to do a test run and sit in it for a little while and try it out…

There are only a few things that I need to get for the birth and then I am all set to have this new babe….

Hmmm…. why don’t I just list the things that I need to do here…. it will probably get me to do it more quickly…

get the baby clothes out of the shed, separate just what we need and wash it.
get the newborn diapers out and place them somewhere handy
make a basket/box with everything that I need for the birth so that it is all on hand and in one spot
write a “birth plan”… not a conventional birth plan of course… just something to have quick reminders on for both Simon an I….
Buy some embroidery floss and braid it
buy or find a new pump for my birthing ball (mine broke when it fell) and the ball needs a bit of air…
Make a few more meals if I can…

There might be more of course….
OH… and about two weeks ago I decided that we needed a new fridge…. (after having to re-duct tape the shelves in our current fridge that we got free 6 years ago) it was supposed to arrive in a few weeks but I got a call saying that they will be able to deliver it on Thursday!! Don’t ask me why but I am really excited about it… weird huh!?

36+ weeks…

I can’t believe that I am already in my 37th week!

Colin was born at 38 weeks and if this babe decided to do the same that would mean that I would meet the little one in 2 weeks… Though I would like that for reasons of being uncomfortable and in pain… I would actually prefer to have this babe a bit closer to mid-november…

I have been having tons of BH lately.. some that are downright painful… With the boys I had a few painless BH and never really experienced labour in front… this time, I feel all of the BH in the front and I can really guess what labour will probably feel like… I am a bit excited to think that I will probably get to experience real labour instead of back labour..

I have decided again that I really want a waterbirth… I had thought that I didn’t for a while and that I would try to use my bathtub if I needed water but it really wouldn’t work at all… the bathtub is WAY too small and the water doesn’t cover my belly at all.. also, we have one of those rectangular shaped bathtubs with a steep back so you can’t really lay back and relax… anyways… I ordered “La Bassine” last week and should be getting it this week and I went and picked this up from an aquarium supply store so that I can fill and empty the tub easily….(I won’t be using the gravel cleaner ;))

I have a few supplies ready but just need to get them together so that they are all at the same place and ready to go if we need them… and I still have a few things that I want to pick up…

It is so hard to imagine that very soon I will be holding a new babe… a new little life…. this little person that has been moving around inside me for months… nursing and cuddling… and breathing in that newborn baby smell again…

Here is a pic from today…

No-poo…

Well… I decided to go no-poo before the summer… I washed my hair for the last time in June and haven’t looked back… Now more than 4 mos later my hair looks great. It is soft and shiny and manageable…

Once in a while (about every three weeks now) I will wash it will a bit of Baking soda… once a week or less I will rinse it with Apple Cider Vinegar… but most of the time I just rinse with water and that is it..

It took a bit of an adjustment period but we were in the pool often atthat time and it was summer so I just left my hair up and it really didn’t show much… after about 2-3 weeks it started to look great… now it looks even better then when I used shampoo…

here is a pic 🙂

I am going to quit… I think…

A few months ago a got a call from a mom that found my # on my distributor’s website and asked if I could go show her some wraps and slings… I went over and stayed for at least 2 hours… we talked about a lot and one of those things happened to be how to introduce solids… Her dd was just about 6 mos old and the ped (the yucky ped that I hate) told her to start but her dd wasn’t too interested… So, I told her about child led introduction to solids, bypassing cereals and baby foods and going straight to table foods… we also talked about many other things and she found out that I was a peer-to-peer counsellor…

A few weeks after that she called me and asked me a few more questions about solids again… I told her a bit more and then that was that, I never spoke to her again…

So, about two weeks ago I got a call from the centre where I volunteer… It seems that they received a complaint about advice on solids that I gave a mom and they wanted to talk to me about differences that I may have with the center and how we could work to give all of the same advice etc…

Anyways… I thought about things and realized that the type of suggestion that they were talking about I only gave to that one mom… and it was done on my personal time…

When I brought that up, I was told that it was the “wrong” thing to do… even though I was there on my own time, was not there at all as a Peer to Peer etc… I still need to give the same advice as the Canada Health etc.. and I should never contradict a doc (it seems that this is true even when the doc gives advice that goes against Canada health)…

Anyways.. this happened in a phone conversation and I was asked to go in for a more extensive meeting… however, I don’t want to… I don’t feel like confronting two people… I don’t feel I have the strength emotionally at the moment…

When I am on my own time, I feel that I have a right to say whatever I choose… I am allowed to share my opinions and points of views.. When I am called for counselling I know that I have to give advice that I do not always agree with, or at least point them into a different direction to get advice that I don’t want to give… I don’t mind wearing two hats at times… but I don’t think that my volunteer hat should be forced on me on my personal time… I don’t think that

About a day or two after I talked to the head of the volunteers the Centre coordinator called me and asked me when I would come in… I told her I would call her back… I never did… I don’t want to either…

I was going to take a break from volunteering when the new babe comes anyways… but now… I don’t want to go back after…

I love volunteering but I don’t to be dictated in my personal time. I don’t believe that I have to hold back from talking to a mom at the park or in her home when called over about baby wearing just because they might find out that I am also a volunteer…

I am not sure what I am going to do yet, but I have lost the want to volunteer there…