Decluttering – Page 9 – a hippie with a minivan

and here we go again…

no I am not pregnant 😉

but today… just a few days shy of Khéna being 17 months I got my first PPAF… (Post-partum “Aunt-Flo” for those that are not familiar with the lingo)

With the firt two boys I got my PPAF at about 9 months… when they started to walk and nurse less in the day and started eating solids… With Khéna though, he did not slow in nursing at all when he started milestones… he didn’t have those normal periods where he was more wakeful at night either…

But slowly, he has been nursing less and when I got really crampy and irritable at the begining of the week, I knew that it would not be long…

the bloating could also be a reason that the scale showed so much of a difference as today I am now 5 lbs less then I was when I weighed myself on Wednesday…

Though I do and did enjoy the time that I don’t have to go through the monthly rituals… I do have to say that being able to start charting again and knowing what my body is doing makes things a bit easier for me…

Maybe one day I would like to have another child but I don’t think it is the right time at the moment… I want the boys to grow a bit before…

well… that was a bit depressing…

So… I knew that my scale was not reliable at all…. it was giving weights up to 5 lbs in difference each time I stepped on it…

So I went and bought a new scale last… and well… depressing as it is… I am 13 lbs heavier than the old scale was telling me …

I was already discouraged… when I saw that I felt a bit depressed…

However… today, looking at it… It will be OK…
It is just a number and though I am farther from my goal than what I thought… I rather know now than if I found out after one of my mini-goals and found out that I really wasn’t there yet… at least this way I know where I really am and I know what I need to do to get where I want to be…

Honestly, I think that I need to eat a bit more… I got some great feedback and it made me realize that because I am a bit heavier than I thought and I am getting more exercise… then I might not be eating enough… and if that is the case I my body might be in “starvation mode” and hoarding the fat instead of letting it go…

So… I will just keep on going… I really want this…

A bit discouraged…

Swimming is doing great… I am getting stronger and I am building endurance. I can go longer without stopping to take a break and breathe..

I have been journaling what I eat and I have been staying within my “limits” which isn’t that hard to do actually because there are not many habits that need changing though I have been keeping my eye out a bit more on portion sizes…

I do feel like I have more energy… which feels great…

but….

I step on the scale and there is no change.. My measurements don’t really seem like they are changing either… I do think I need a new scale though because every time I step on it I get a different number but the lowest number is not really going down…

It is hard because though I think I know that the changes I am making are great for me, I would have liked to start seeing results…

It is just hard to not get discouraged…

Sparkpeople…

I joined Sparkpeople last year but never got into it… but in the last few weeks I have been checking it out more and have started to enter stuff everyday… and I think that I might be seeing a few results…

When I was doing WW way back when It really did help when I journaled what I was eating and it is proving to be helpful again… I also love that everything is there and very visually based so I can set goals if I wish and see that I have fulfilled them…

I haven’t really gotten into the message boards but I know that there is support for everyone there so I might start posting a bit more..

Anyone else a member there?

keep on swimming…

Keep on swimming… keep on swimming… swimming.. swimming…

I have been trying to go swimming 2-3X a week and slowly it is becoming easier to actually get up after supper and go…

It is not far away… So to swim for the hour that is open… I am gone from home from about 6:25 to 7:35… that works out to be right after supper while the kids are in the bath and gettin ready for bed… then when I come home I can nurse the little ones to sleep…

the first day I went I worked myself a bit too hard… I was sore before I left the pool… but now I go slowly and steadily and I am slowly building my endurance… by the end on an hour I end up doing about 25-30 laps… which may not be much but at least I am moving and I keep on moving…

What’s hard though is that swimming is a great excersise but you get really hungry when you are done… I really need to find some good snacks that will fill me up without just adding back all of the calories that I just burned off…