Well… I am a bit more then 20 weeks pregnant and today is the day that I could call the midwife center in Nicolet… I am still debating it though…
I went to the Chiro last week and she is also pregnant and about a week or two further then me and she called and got a place right away, maybe she took the last place, maybe not… but I am a bit scared of going, yet I still have fears at times and want to go see the midwifes just to check things out… not really now… but near the end…
But I also don’t to have to fight for what I want and what I need for the pregnancy and labour… I love going unassisted and I love the planning of having an unassisted birth… Like I have mentioned in the last post about this… I am scared of pressure, I am scared of this birth becoming medicalized… If I go I would make it clear that I am looking towards an unhindered/unassisted birth.. if a midwife was to be present she would not be in the same room as I when giving birth… however, I am scared that the presense of such a person would hinder the mood and the sanctity that I am looking for…
Today is the day that I should have called if that is what I wanted to do… I still have time but I don’t have the heart…
Paxye, you are a strong woman. And you are knowledgable about this process, and about your own body’s abilities.
I have a feeling that whatever you choose, you will have a healthy baby. That you have the wisdom and experience to know that this really is a choice — YOUR choice — means that you are empowered in a way that so many others are not.
I believe that you will be able to “use” the services of a midwife to check things out, now or later in the pregnancy, but still hold firm about the kind of birth you want. Good luck!!
I am so excited about reading your blog as you see this pregnancy through.
I’m excited for you, too!