This pregnancy is a bit weird for me at the moment…
I am finding myself forgetting that I am pregnant instead of my usual habits of looking at pregnancy things everyday… I told my mom last week when I went up to the cabin and I hesitated before I did… but finally decided to and now I regret it a bit… and besides friends I feel no pull into sharing the news with other family….my mom called yesterday and asked how the baby was and I said that he was good and running around… not thinking at all that she was talking about the one growing in me and not Khéna.
With Xavier it was the excitement of having a first, waiting for my midwife appt., doing exams and writing papers and working the x-mas rush at work… With Colin it was the excitement of having a second, going out a lot around Montreal with Xavier, buying a house etc…With Khéna it was choosing to have a UP/UC and soaking up all the info that I could…. This time, it is just life as usual and in someway I think that I am scared to get too attached in case some thing happens.
I also find that these first weeks make it easier to feel the way that I do because there is no movement yet… no heartbeat to be heard… besides aversions and a few cravings I have no symptoms… so it is still just a waiting game and though it was still the same waiting game with the others, this time it just feels different…
Maybe it’s a girl. 🙂
I think being worried to get too attached is normal, considering what happened. Things happen in strange ways sometimes. Maybe you should find or let yourself have a reason to get excited and immersed in pregnancy things. Why not let yourself do it this time as well?
I’m with Leslie! I laughed at her first sentence!
This pregnancy is only just now seeming more real to me. I had to try five years and endure a miscarriage before having Princess Maggie. So when I managed to get pg only 8 months after Princess Maggie was born, I was shocked, even though we were trying. I spent the first part of this pregnancy with it just not feeling real.
I have started to watch baby shows, go to baby groups, immerse myself in it a bit and it has begun to seem more real to me now.