I listed our house up for sale today…
This weekend Simon and I made a rash decision. The thing is, I don’t just want to be in BC, I want to go home, I want to go back to Nelson… where I was raised. We were trying to think of ways to get closer to Nelson, because the dream of being in Nelson always felt unattainable. But I always avoided the fact that we could just go to Nelson. Why not work on making that dream a reality?
There are still no jobs that we can see from here in Quebec, but that doesn’t mean that we can’t find some kind of work to make ends meet. So, though we are not going to give up our search for work, we might leave before we find it. I truly believe that things would fall into place if we were there especially because both of us are willing to work at it.
It’s scary. It’s terrifying really. To give up the stability that we have now, the salary that we have now, our house, our friends… for a dream. But is that stability worth our happiness? No, it isn’t. But, I feel sick… My brain is screaming NO and dragging its heels in the ground while my heart is bounding and leaping forwards making rash decisions. There is a complete separation. I don’t know what to feel at the moment.
I am just not happy where we are. I have wanted to be back in Nelson, back in BC since I left when I was ten. I want to raise my kids there and have them know the mountains in the same way I did. I want them to have the community that I had and going to Nelson, I would already have some community already established. People that I know and love and that watched me grow up.
but… but…. but…. the brain goes to work again..
There are so many changes ahead, I don’t know what to expect, but I can’t wait to see where my heart bring me…
(Hello! Long time reader here!) I too hope to one day bring my family to where I was raised, but only for a visit. incidentally, where I was raised is only a little over 4 hours away from where you were raised! I am from a teeny-tiny town on the (American) side of the border in Washington state called Oroville. Maybe you have heard of it? BTW, I’m really happy to hear that your littlest is doing well. : )
It’s hard to just trust and believe all will work out…that darn brain gets in the way at times:))
We are in the process of the same thing…we are done with living in a place that does not bring us happiness…a pay cheque has kept us here for far too long and our dreams slowly but just that …a dream… this year was enough for us…time to make a move…no more snoozing and “wishing” for things to fall into place like a “job” first….
Lucky for you …sounds like you do have some people you already know and that is a bonus…
As a business owner here where we live ….we have Never advertised…word of mouth has always been how we “got” a pay cheque…
Our little boys are 6 and 8 …time to make the move…what makes it very hard for my heart is that I have a grand baby here….and it saddens me to how much less I will be able to see her….that is where my heart and brain gets absolutely torn…
Deep breath and one day at a time…
We have been purging like crazy and have sold so so much already….
We are ready and wanting a new start…
So happy to read that the little one is healthy again…she is such a ray of sunshine
Woohoo!
Gotta plan things out carefully to make this dream come true! You won’t have any regrets if you follow your heart. I am crossing my fingers and toes for you, confident that the universe is full of solutions for you, just waiting to be discovered.
FANTASTIC MELISSA!!! trust your instincts, just like for childbirth, trust your body, he knows best! we have always been taught to use our brains, no it’s time to use our RIGHTBRAIN the one forthe intuition and the knowledge of our body!!!
this will work out, for SURE, just like in THE ALCHIMIST: MEKTOUB, aie confiance!
Wow. That is a bold move. You are a great woman and I’m sure everything will be fine if you follow your heart. We will miss you around here!
How exciting. We followed our heart 3 years ago and havent looked back!
Best wishes
Libby
My husband and I have had a similar conversation. I’m very close with my parents, grandparents, and siblings and desperately want to go home. I completely agree that happiness is most important. It’s difficult when money gets in the way.