Letting go of some fears…

I’m contracting at the moment.. I don’t know if this is it or not yet and I don’t want to get my hopes up… they are getting painful though and I have dilated a bit… so the contractions are doing something…
However, there are some fears that I need to let go of however before anything does happen..

First, this labour will be different, I feel it, I have felt it for months now. The position is different, the discomforts are different. I have never experienced labour in a normal way… just hours of back labour… back labour that lasted until the last few minutes… Though some say it is worse… I don’t know… that is all I know about labour… It is this fear of the unknown that I need to get rid of…

I am not scared at all about having a UC, I am ready for it, I feel ready, I trust my body and I trust my instincts… I have been wondering though if these other fears that I have been having have been inhibiting my contractions to go anywhere for the last 2-3 weeks… I have had hours of prodromal labour that have fizzled out… and each time i happened when I thought about the actual labour, the unknown of it all… the unknown of a labour that may progress normally…

I am letting go of these fears now…. it may not happen tonight, tomorrow or even this week but it will happen and I know that I can do it…

Here is a list of some positive affirmations that I will be telling myself…

My mind and body can handle a labour of any kind.
I will have a strong and healthy baby.
I trust my body to know how to birth this child.
I trust my instincts to know what I need in labour.
I trust my instincts to do what is best for my baby.
I trust my pain
I embrace the concept of healthy pain.
Good strong contractions help my baby come into the world.
I am now willing to experience all my feelings.
My body is beautiful, capable and strong.
My body knows how to have this baby, just as my body knew how to grow this baby.
I feel confident; I feel safe; I feel secure.

By melissa|November 22nd, 2006|Categories: Misc Ramblings, New Beginnings, UP/UC|Comments Off

About the Author: melissa

I am "a hippie with a minivan". A mom of four who has chosen to take the less travelled roads in parenting. We are a unschooling family and learn through life without punishments or rewards. I am a Needle Felting Artist, I love being in the Kitchen, and love to share my passion of Natural Parenting through Workshops and Mentoring. We have a big dream of living on the road and we are in the process of converting a bus!

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creepyUCmama November 23, 2006 at 12:01 am

Oh, good vibes to you if this is it or not. I completely relate to your entire post as I’ve been in that same prodromal boat for going on 6 weeks now and been through a 21 hour posterior labor. And if it is the real thing, sprinkle some o’ that labor dust my way. =)
momto4boys November 23, 2006 at 8:23 am

I had back labor with my first pregnancy (twins) and it was horrible. With my next two pregnancies, I had ‘regular’ front labor, and it was nothing compared to the pain I had when I was in labor with my twins.

you know, today is Thanksgiving here in the state. Maybe your little turkey will show up today, LOL! I will keep you in my thoughts today. 🙂
Jessica November 23, 2006 at 10:17 am

I’ll be thinking about you all day and sending strong birthing thoughts.
bluemoonmama November 23, 2006 at 11:52 am

Paxye, I know you can do this!!!

I am thinking of you every day.
April November 23, 2006 at 3:03 pm

Yeah, I have heard many a time that back labour’s the worst labour that there is. You CAN do this…she will be easier to birth. I feel it, M.

I hope all is well…you posted this last night, after the last time I checked.

Hugs and positive vibes. Love you!