I haven’t been writing much, honestly I haven’t been doing much…

I am now at more than 39 weeks and in pain.. I had a great massage and chiro appt last week that helped me a lot for a few days, but the weekend with grocery shopping and the blessingway tired me out completely… Nights have also been rough and I seem to have a waking period at about 3am and then I can’t get back to sleep…

So my daily pattern has been being a boring mom that does just the minimum during the day while Simon is at work, making supper, eating and then heading to bed to relax (with the laptop, my mp3 player or my Nintendo DS etc…)… I don’t fall asleep any sooner than usual but at least I can be more comfortable than if I am upstairs… then sleep until I wake up for a few hours in the night and then luckily I seem to be able to fall asleep again around the time Simon gets up and I sleep for another hour or two…

Though I do enjoy many aspects of being pregnant, chances are that this is my last pregnancy and especially because of the SPD, I am feeling OK with that… I love feeling the baby move, I love the anticipation of meeting our new child, I actually love giving birth… but, I don’t want to experience this pain again…

It is amazing how the end of pregnancy seems to take over life, Simon is a bit on edge and getting everything ready to leave work at any time,  every twinge has me wondering if it will lead to another, prodromal labour for hours at times messes with your brain and every day is a waiting game…the baby isn’t engaged yet but is mostly hanging out in a good position.. I would like to do more on the exercise/birthing ball but the SPD won’t allow it… I feel OK while on the ball but it is after that is the problem…

I would also love to go for a walk but I don’t feel stable enough in the snow and Ice… (especially since I fell a few weeks ago in front of the grocery store) and I know that though it would feel good, I would be in more pain while walking and especially after…

The boys are also ready for the birth, we had an amazing talk the other other day about the uterus, the cervix and how it all works… though Khéna’s understanding is limited to understanding that there is actually a baby in there and that it will come out and have “maju”, the older boys, especially Xavier really seem to understand what will be happening physically during labour… It makes me realize that there is a quite an age difference between the oldest and what will soon be the youngest…

So, yes, tired of being pregnant, tired of the pain… but within 3 weeks it will be over, within 3 weeks it will all be forgotten, within three weeks we will be meeting be a family falling in love with the new little member… I hope it is sooner than later…