Man… I feel old…

We are leaving next week and I am getting more and more nervous…I get a queasy feeling each time I think about it… and with all that I need to prepare I have been feeling really queasy lately… especially now that Xavier’s party has past and now it is the only thing I need to think about…

There is just something nerve wracking about leaving our home for about 5-6 weeks… leaving our comforts, our routine, our beds etc…

I am nervous about staying at my mom and her bf’s house… they are not used to kids… let alone 3 energetic boys…

We don’t go on many trips… though I love to travel… and I know that everything will be great and that I am going to love the time that I spend there… it is just weird… leaving with three kids is no where like leaving alone….

but though I am nervous… I really am looking forward to being in BC, seeing old friends, having them meet my kids… meeting theirs… I can’t wait to meet Annie who I talk to almost everyday on the phone and is pretty my best friend even though we have never met in person…

I think that one thing that makes me nervous also is that I love BC so much I really have trouble leaving each time I go back…

Really though… to be honest with myself…

I think that I am a bit nervous that I will get back here and be even more unhappy about living here… and I really don’t want that…